BIOGRAPHY

MY GUITARIST SELF JOURNEY

It all started when I was 12 and I got my first guitar and my first classical guitar class in the private Concervatoire of Alexandria, you see I am Egyptian who was raised by a normal parents who didn’t know anything about music more than songs and movies sound tracks, but I remember my self around age of 8 finding my way in the night watching ballet on the local Tv channels, I found my self fascinated by my guitar study and I was naturally attracted to Beethoven, Chopin, Tchaikovsky, Bach I didn’t have any guidance about the classical music profession or details from my first teacher (Hossam elshafay) for three years, but then life directed me for my second teacher (Cherif dahroug) who had the passion and the stamina of being a teacher and a musician he noticed my knowledge about the classical music in general and my high level of musicality he also noticed my timid shy character at that time obviously he didn’t understand how much I was fighting to stay on the track of studying with my own parents trying every way to stop me to the point of trying to destroy my guitar accusing me with insanity and how much my love for guitar is preventing me from getting married and becoming a normal obedient girl, but with all that, fighting was my only option even if I didn’t get much appreciation from my second teacher, one thing I was very grateful for that he created an ensemble a group of his students for playing and performing together for three years I had friends from my guitar classes and that was a dream for me  that became a reality, but then he made his way to the l’ecole normal in France and the group got divided , we were transformed to my third teacher ( Karim Frége) the current artistic director of the conservator of Alexandria , he wasn’t really  into groups and ensembles, but he appreciated my musicality and my hard work above all and that’s  when my level started to get back up on track again for five years with him I finished grade 5 , 7, 8 of ABRSM certificates in Guitar performance with Distinction in every one of them , beside the theory of grade 5 of course with a merit , I appreciate it so much but then the moment came when I found it very logical to keep moving forward to my next level of receiving Diploma and to get my self mentally and technically prepared to be th guitarist I was born to be, the guitarist  that I have been studying for more  than 11 years and iwas totally ready to keep studying for whatever it takes of years to reach my destination as a guitarist that one day will perform in the accompaniment of Orchestra, but than when I shared my heart intention with my thirds teacher he made it very clear that it is impossible to achieve what I want it’s a matter of madness to even think that it’s achievable, I remember myself crying so much shocked of the fact that now I am totally alone in my journey, for me there is only one way and that is to keep growing till I flourish in becoming my true self as a performing guitarist , now that I had lost my only support I had to leave my teacher and the Concervatoire with no looking back, but doin it all on my own in the same year my father was passed away was too much for me ,it took me 5 years to get back to myself , knowing that I never found peace or righteousness in my life away from my guitar journey, I am now a modern paintings artist beside my interest in classical ballet as well but guitar is my truth.

My Spain trip

In my first year of my transition to my third guitar teacher I found myself compelled to start teaching even during my college time(Alsun Languages university) to have the means and the independence of paying my guitar classes without any challenges from my family side but the reality of Egypt was lately shown to me in a moment of realization that the cycle have been divided between being a student then if you survived all the odds you become a teacher , but where the performance where is the theatre in my case it have been always an elusive dream that I was raised by my teacher sto believe that I have to be ready for such honor but when I started to become ready I was hit by the truth to my face( their own truth) that it’s impossible and it will never happen!

I tried my best to stay in the teaching lane till I made it to the Biblioteque of Alexandria after teaching for 6 months in the Russian cultural center and I didn’t find the satisfaction I was seeking, receiving the news of me being accepted in the Bilioteque arouse my innocent hope of getting acknowledged for my guitar efforts in the field of teaching and performing, but it was another dissapointement along the way for the teachers barely recognized as artists themselves and their talents and their skills are skipped as usual, and from the teaching side the limitations imposed from the business and society traditionally are still played out, fighting again for raising awareness about what the guitar can do and the potential of forming a small orchestra for children to learn and grow through to avoid the challenges I had to face in my journey of always being alone and isolated finding same minded people or friends was a huge challenge that I tried my best to make my students bypass. But the clash of interests climbed up to a big argument from the organizer himself that I found again the only way to keep my integrity and my self respect is to apply for my resignation. For more than two years I stopped teaching. 

Finding my way back to Cairo Egypt after spending a year in Dubai and three years dedicated to my Paintings.

I am here ready to give you now my music